someone called love...

dear diaria...i want to tell u about this one...about my love relationships...well to be truth...i never really have a special love relationship for the whole life except with this man...he is actually married and i realized all that after that feelings grown up in me...in my heart...huhu...he never confess about his status to me at that time coz he afraid that i refused to take him as a friend...but i can't reverse the time as it is keep going to move...so we keep on our relationship secretly...i knew him for almost 3 years but the declaration is going to be 1 year this coming 29/03/09.huhu...there was a lot of barriers, tests, happiness, sorrowness and everything but he is the only man who can accept me as for who i am...the perfectness, the defectiveness and everything...i think nobody can do that for me...and as for now my love to him is growing bigger and healthy towards him and i really hope it's going to keep lasting...yeah i know this relationship is not going anywhere but i'm a human...as well as him too...i can't comment anything about the future to come but what i know he's going to be the last man i love...

here's the song:
I ONLY WANTED by mariah carey...


Doesn't it ever stay
Must it always fade away
Couldn't love ever be
Something tangible and real
Farewell, fairweather friend
Abandonment returns to
taunt me again

I only wanted you to stay
Linger and mean the words you said
Foolishly I romanticized
Someone was saving my life

For the first time
I only wanted you to
be there when I
Opened up my eyes

I was caught in your masquerade
Wish I'd stayed beneath my veil
But it just seemed so easy to
Open up myself to you
Once more into the wind
The embers scatter
And the chill settles in

I only wanted you to stay
Linger and mean the words you said
Foolishly I romanticized
Someone was saving my life
For the first time
I only wanted you to
be there when I
Opened up my eyes

Oh
I only wanted you to stay
Linger and mean the words you said
Foolishly I romanticized
Someone was saving my life
For the first time
I only wanted you to be
The one to get me
through that night

I only wanted you
To be there when I
Opened up my eyes
Oh
Doesn't it ever stay?
I only wanted you to
Stay